Pilot's Log

Somehow I may have reconnected my Journal with Facebook again.  But I don't know for sure.

You know that dream that all adults have of being stuck back in Grade School again?  I sort of had a variation on that overnight:

I was handled an examination pamphlet I was supposed to have done back in childhood.  Only I had never seen it before and all the responses inside it were blank.  And then I found a note inside it from my teacher that read Stephen Bierce was in trouble and being disciplined that day so he was unavailable for this assignment.

I would later learn that the faculty at my school was morally opposed to the assignment and wrote notes like it in all the books.  Not only did they keep us from doing the work, they hid the whole thing from us so we would never know it existed.

I have no idea what the dream is supposed to mean.

Regard the current tensions and detours as camouflaged gifts from the gods of growth. You're being offered a potent opportunity to counteract the effects of a self-sabotage you committed once upon a time. You're getting an excellent chance to develop the strength of character that can blossom from dealing with soul-bending riddles. In fact, I think you'd be wise to feel a surge of gratitude right now. To do so will empower you to take maximum advantage of the disguised blessings.

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Thankless Thanksgiving?  I'm not sure that's possible.

In one of her poems, Adrienne Rich addresses her lover: "That conversation we were always on the edge / of having, runs on in my head." Is there a similar phenomenon in your own life, Sagittarius? Have you been longing to thoroughly discuss certain important issues with a loved one or ally, but haven't found a way to do so? If so, a breakthrough is potentially imminent. All of life will be conspiring for you to speak and hear the words that have not yet been spoken and heard but very much need to be.

I think the reason I always see my brother (and less often than him, my sister) in my dreams is because on those few occasions when we do get together, we don't have the opportunity or inclination to get into the heavy subject matters.

I've had laryngitis for the last some days, and I wonder how long I will need to endure the condition.

I've even thought very seriously about the possibility of permanent speech loss and what that might do to what's left of my working life.

It's not like anybody's ever complimented me about my voice, or invited me to speak just to hear me talk.  No, more often than not I'll be interrupted or cut off before I complete my trains of thought.

Touted as a prime source of "kick-@ss spirituality," author Danielle LaPorte has advice that's good for you to hear. "You will always be too much of something for someone," she says, "too big, too loud, too soft, too edgy." But that's exactly as it should be, she adds. It would be a mistake to "round out your edges," because then you would "lose your edge." And I'm here to tell you that you need all of your edge right now, Sagittarius. It's time to ignore people's mediocre expectations and push past their limits. To be true to yourself, you will probably have to be too much of something for several someones.

There's no place like hone?