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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of June 14, 2012

Nineteenth-century Russian novelist Ivan Turgenev once called his fellow novelist Fyodor Dostoyevsky a "pimple on the face of literature." But more than a hundred years after that crude dismissal, Dostoyevsky is a much more highly regarded and influential writer than Turgenev. Use this as inspiration, Sagittarius, if you have to deal with anyone's judgmental appraisals of you in the coming days. Their opinions will say more about them than about you. Refresh your understanding of the phenomenon of "projection," in which people superimpose their fantasies and delusions on realities they don't see clearly.


I tried to resign from my officer's post in the Knoxville Modelers Association overday and the other members were trying to talk me out of the move. My reasons are as much practical as emotional; I don't know how much longer I'll stay in the area and the club is better served by somebody who can give it the effort and resources it needs. But they just tried to appeal to my sense of self-esteem and pep talk me. I don't know. If the cheerleader's heart isn't in to cheer, what good is it to the team on the field?
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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of November 10, 2011

In Mongolia there's a famous fossil of two dinosaurs locked in mortal combat. Forever frozen in time, a Velociraptor is clawing a Protoceratops, which in turn is biting its enemy's arm. They've been holding that pose now for, oh, 80 million years or so. I'm shoving this image in your face, Sagittarius, so as to dare you and encourage you to withdraw from your old feuds and disputes. It's a perfect time, astrologically speaking, to give up any struggle that's not going to matter 80 million years from now.


Inner Judge, you have no more right to scold me for my misdeeds from childhood through College Age. They're done, they are NOT going to happen again, and I AM NOT the same boy I used to be. Find somebody else to shout at from the bench because I'm not under your Court Order anymore!

Aleks

Oct. 25th, 2009 01:40 pm
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I saw Aleks at the hospital a couple hours ago. He was comatose, breathing through a ventilator machine and stuck with half a dozen IV tubes. I doubt he knew I was there.

His family knows about his condition. His nurse told me his sister visited him at least once. He was brought in the day BEFORE the day I had planned to see him but couldn't--so I'm absolved but not relieved. I still don't know what caused his predicament...it could have been an accident, or it could have been a stroke, or it could have been violence. I saw no clear evidence in any direction.

My folks tell me I've done all that I can be expected to do for him, and that if I try to do more I'll just drive myself crazy. But that is such an awful state to be in. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

FP
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*) Went into Knoxville to look up Aleks and attempt to apologize for letting him down last week. He wasn't home so I left a bag of goodies on his front doorknob.

*) In my travels I visited the Barillaro Speed Emporium garage, but it didn't look like anybody was there either...I'll go back on Saturday.

*) I need to update my Amazon Wish List. Perhaps I'll link to it when I finish.
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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of December 11, 2008

There are 300,000 surveillance cameras set up all over the city of Beijing, spying constantly on its citizens. London, a supposed bastion of democracy, has 500,000 such cameras. I highly recommend you don't visit either place in the coming weeks, Sagittarius. It's crucial for you to avoid influences that make you feel self-conscious or guilty. You've got to hang out in spots where you're not being watched, scrutinized, and evaluated. While you're at it, you might also want to tell your Inner Critic to shut the hell up. You need wide-open, judgment-free spaces, both without and within.


That Inner Critic has been on my case for decades. So I have an excuse to tell him to shove off? Hmm.
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And I hope [personal profile] muskrat_john gets wind of the idea...

With the recriminations about the fatal skirmish in Afganistan going through the motions here, I see a U.S. Army General in front of the press corps cameras like former National Football League head coach Dennis Green:

"The Taliban are who we thought they were--and we let 'em off the hook!"

...

Sums up my feelings on the matter, anyway. And in general I hate the mixing of sports and military thinking.

FP
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Being mean to myself or failing to give myself some slack. I resolved to absolve myself for my past behavior for New Years this year and it hasn't worked out well at all.

Part II

Dec. 16th, 2006 09:45 pm
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All of a sudden, I feel the need to vent about guilt trips. Just a little while ago, we were listening to Garrison Keillor's radio show, and they had a skit on in their long running series about a man named Duane and his clingy mother. Well, in this episode she was laying on the usual guilt trips and I turned off the radio because I no longer felt amused.

I wouldn't say that I get more than my fair share of guilt trips from people. But I have received plenty in the last ten years.

Lately my father has been trying to drive me to look for work...and in fact, I have been looking. But this is a lousy time to try to find a job. Plus I have an obligation that needs to run its course before I'm eligible to apply for steady work.

At my last job, my boss kept trying to get me to move away from my parents. She didn't understand that I'm living in the same house with them because they perpetually want me around. And I doubt whether I have the skills to live on my own. And at this stage in my life, what's the point in starting a household of my own? I'm no catch for a batchelorette. Keeping up with the Jones has never interested me.

In American terms, I'm pathetic. In Global terms, my cup runneth over. I don't meet anybody else's standards...and I guess I don't meet my own either.

I hate guilt trips. But I heap myself with them too. It's a bad habit of mine, I guess.

FP

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