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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of July 28, 2016

Of all the forbidden fruits that you fantasize about, which one is your favorite? Among the intriguing places you consider to be outside of your comfort zone, which might inspire you to redefine the meaning of "comfort"? The coming weeks will be a favorable time to reconfigure your relationship with these potential catalysts. And while you're out on the frontier dreaming of fun experiments, you might also want to flirt with other wild cards and strange attractors. Life is in the mood to tickle you with useful surprises.

That first sentence reminded me of an entry I wrote in 2008:

Yes, I've experienced a number of weird feelings in my life so far...

But now that I'm working with LucasFrancis...

It's as if I'm going from "I'll never get to do anything I want" to "Hey, I could do EVERY DARN THING I want!" and what results is a feeling of "Wait. What have I got to prove?" When my wildest dreams seemed so far away, it was just another drag on my morale. Now my morale is schizoid. What do I want so badly that I need to start work on it RIGHT NOW?
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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of May 28, 2015

Petrarch was an influential 14th-century Italian poet whose main work was Song Book. It's a collection of 366 poems, most of which are dedicated to Laura, the woman he loved. For 40 years he churned out testaments of longing and appreciation for her, despite the fact that he and she never spent time together. She was married to another man, and was wrapped up in raising her eleven children. Should we judge Petrarch harshly for choosing a muse who was so unavailable? I don't. Muse-choosing is a mysterious and sacred process that transcends logic. I'm bringing the subject to your attention because you're entering a new phase in your relationship with muses. It's either time to choose a new one (or two?) or else adjust your bonds with your current muses.

My morale has been very low lately, and I have to apologize to the human race that I've been very poor company to keep.  I'm mulling over re-configuring Chillin' Out for a possible Kindle Store, and other news in my life has me trying to figure out the usual depression and demoralization from outright self-loathing and anger.  I don't know what would make me feel better.

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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of April 9, 2015

The English term "engine" refers primarily to a machine that transforms energy into mechanical power. But its roots are in the Old French word engin, which meant skill or wit, and in the Latin word ingenium, defined as "inborn talent." I'd like to borrow the original meanings to devise your horoscope this week. According to my reading of the astrological omens, your "engine" is unusually strong right now, which means that your cultivated skills and innate talents are functioning at peak levels. I suggest you make intensive use of them to produce maximum amounts of energy and gather more of the clout you'd love to wield.

I do want to start writing again.  I just hope I have some good opportunities.

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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of January 22, 2015


Italian composer Gioachino Rossini (1792-1868) didn't like to work hard, and yet he was also prolific. In fact, his desire to avoid strenuous exertion was an important factor in his abundant output. He got things done fast. His most famous opera, The Barber of Seville, took him just 13 days to finish. Another trick he relied on to reduce his workload was plagiarizing himself. He sometimes recycled passages from his earlier works for use in new compositions. Feeling good was another key element in his approach to discipline. If given a choice, he would tap into his creative energy while lounging in bed or hanging out with his buddies. In the coming weeks, Sagittarius, I recommend you consider strategies like his.

"Looney Tunes", huh?  Maybe I ought to find some cartoons to watch.

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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of November 6, 2014

P. G. Wodehouse wrote more than 90 books, as well as numerous plays, musical comedies, and film scripts. When he died at age 93, he was working on another novel. He did not suffer from writer's block. And yet his process was far from effortless. He rarely churned out perfection on his first attempt. "I have never written a novel," he testified, "without doing 40,000 words or more and finding they were all wrong and going back and starting again." The way I see your immediate future, Sagittarius, is that you will be creating your own version of those 40,000 wrong words. And that's OK. It's not a problem. You can't get to the really good stuff without slogging through this practice run.

I didn't even think about NaNoWriMo this time around.  But my problem is that my long spans of quietude aren't long enough for actual work.  They come to crashing halts when the furnace fires up.

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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of May 1, 2014

Actor Matthew McConaughey prides himself on his willingness to learn from his mistakes and failures. A few years ago he collected and read all the negative reviews that critics had ever written about his work in films. It was "an interesting kind of experiment," he told Yahoo News. "There was some really good constructive criticism." According to my reading of the astrological omens, Sagittarius, now would be an excellent time for you to try an experiment comparable to McConaughey's. Be brave!

I aspire to other people's indifference.
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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of February 20, 2013

The Russian composer Dmitri Shostakovich wrote his Eighth Symphony in a mere two months during the summer of 1943. He worked on it in an old henhouse on a former chicken farm. The location helped relax him, allowing him to work with extra intensity. I wish you could find a retreat like that for yourself sometime soon, Sagittarius. I think you would benefit from going off by yourself to a sanctuary and having some nice long talks with your ancestors, the spirits of nature, and your deepest self. If that's not practical right now, what would be the next best thing you could do?

Some would say that Rather Manor is a good place to start if you want a creative retreat.  But I have found over the years that we tend to bring in a lot of our own noise without realizing it.  So I don't know what the answer is here.

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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of October 24, 2013

"If you’re in pitch blackness, all you can do is sit tight until your eyes get used to the dark." That helpful advice appears in Norwegian Wood, a novel by Haruki Murakami. Now I'm passing it on to you, just in time for your cruise through the deepest, darkest phase of your cycle. When you first arrive, you may feel blind and dumb. Your surroundings might seem impenetrable and your next move unfathomable. But don't worry. Refrain from drawing any conclusions whatsoever. Cultivate an empty mind and an innocent heart. Sooner or later, you will be able to gather the clues you need to take wise action.


"...We're gonna make our own lightning!"--Neil Diamond
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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of July 4, 2013

Who was Russia's greatest poet? Many critics say it was Alexander Pushkin, who lived in the 19th century. His abundant creativity was undoubtedly related to his unruly libido. By the time he was 31 years old, he'd had 112 lovers. But then he met his ultimate muse, the lovely and intelligent Natalya Goncharova, to whom he remained faithful. "Without you," he wrote to her, "I would have been unhappy all my life." I half-expect something comparable to happen for you in the next ten months, Sagittarius. You may either find an unparalleled ally or else finally ripen your relationship with an unparalleled ally you've known for a while. One way or another, I bet you will commit yourself deeper and stronger.


There is only one woman in the world right now that even approaches that description...and it would be me in the role of her muse, rather than her being mine. *shrug*
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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of March 21, 2013

On the one hand, menopausal women are no longer able to bear children. On the other hand, they often overflow with fresh possibilities and creative ideas. More time is available to them because their children have moved out of the house or don't require as much care. They can begin new careers, focus on their own development, and devote more attention to their personal needs. So in one way their fertility dries up; in another way it may awaken and expand. I suspect that whether or not you are menopausal, you are on the cusp of a comparable shift in your fecundity: one door closing, another door swinging open.


I certainly hope another door is swinging open. I had a dream overnight in which I needed something from my room...and new managers had taken over the building in which I lived and gave me a rough time about letting me into my room or letting me at my own belongings. The people you think are in charge of your life pretty soon won't be--and the next regime won't fall over itself to help you.
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I've decided to re-serial post Chillin' Out on DeviantArt, and set it to some of the Creative Commons permissions.

Maybe this will goad me into finishing it.
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Come on now,
Who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are?
Ha ha ha, bless your soul
You really think you're in control?
--Gnarls Barkley, "Crazy"
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Fourteen years ago, CRIMSON SKIES came and I was so excited about it. I wanted to design planes, and get games going, and really get into the setting. I never got to play, but I did put a few models together and these are some of the paint schemes I'd invented for my fleets. I decided to take an old magazine ad illo (for Cox's model airplanes) and use it as a respository for these schemes and others.
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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of March 1, 2012

There are times in your life when you do a lot of exploring in the outer world, and other times when your pioneering probes are directed primarily inward. In my astrological opinion, you're currently more suited for the latter kind of research. If you agree with me, here's one tack you might want to take: Take an inventory of all your inner voices, noticing both the content of what they say and the tone with which they say it. Some of them may be chatty and others shy; some blaring and others seductive; some nagging and needy and others calm and insightful. Welcome all the voices in your head into the spotlight of your alert attention. Ask them to step forward and reveal their agendas.


This sounds like the proverbial task of herding cats. In theory, the characters in the stories that I tell myself when I go to sleep, and sometimes construct into written fiction--those are my inner voices. And in theory, I have whole planets of microsouls there. How can I count them all? Should I even try, if it looks like the effort would never end and drive me mad?
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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of May 26, 2011

In her irreverent platinum-selling song "Monster," Sagittarian rapper Nicki Minaj offers up a poetic sequence never before heard in the history of the planet: "Pull up in the monster . . . with a bad b-tch that came from Sri Lanka / yeah I'm in that Tonka, color of Willy Wonka." I hope that you will soon come up with an equally revolutionary innovation in your own chosen field, Sagittarius. All the cosmic forces will be conspiring in the coming weeks to help you to do the equivalent of rhyming "Tonka" and "Sri Lanka" with "Willy Wonka." Please cooperate!


The cosmic forces have some work cut out for them, I see.
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James Murphy On NPR's Fresh Air Today. No, I had no idea who he is before...tho' I had in fact heard a few of his songs.

He says some things (not in the text on the page now) that I find very applicable to my Uncool Kid project.
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Not the kind you think.

Tonight, as I was downloading something I now need an unpacker program to open (that I will acquire when I have bandwidth/time), I went to the storage boxes and retrieved an old VHS tape of MTV's The Maxx and watched most of an episode. It was the one in which Maxx is stuck in a Dr. Seuss poem, and then must fight Mr. Gone's hired assassin Hammerhead once he re-emerges in the "real world", while Julie and Sara's mom engage in an R&R trip that is neither sufficiently relaxed nor restful.

That series had been probably one of the most pervading influences on me and my creativity at that time of my life. Ethics & Toy Soldiers was, thematically, a fusion of The Maxx with Gulliver's Travels. The Maxx pretty much says that it's about who we want to be as people, versus who we're forced to be in this world; E.& T.S. was meant to be about the world we want to live in, versus the world that forces itself upon us.

But once again, the reality of the Internet Age has changed everything. Each of us, we inhabit roles we would have only had our imaginary friends to play, have become one another's imaginary friends. The Internet is Maxx's Outback, inhabited by monsters and Izzes and Leopards and really strange stuff...but it also has a comforting effect on us because it's part US.
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Sagittarius Horoscope for week of April 15, 2010

According to Us Weekly, baseball star Alex Rodriguez owns two paintings of himself in which he's portrayed as half-man, half-horse. This is an excellent time for you to be inspired by his example. Gazing at a picture of a mythical centaur who looks like you would speak to your subconscious mind in just the right way. Bypassing your rational ego, that stirring icon would animate and cultivate the wise animal in you. It would stimulate the sweet spot where your physical vitality overlaps your visionary intelligence. Do you know anyone who could Photoshop this powerful image for you?


Could do it myself...but don't need to. In our modest family art collection, we have two black velvet paintings of matadors in action against nasty-looking bulls. I suppose that would have to be the visual metaphor for my own psyche--the human, thinking, civilized side in conflict with the raging, energetic, and implacable beast that is the combination of the gross body and the subconscious. Again, the red/blue dichotomy...there is one painting with the matador in red, and the other matador wears blue, and the poses say different things.

Unfortunately for me I can't bring the pictures out to show you now. I promise to return to this theme in a future Pilot's Log.
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I'm not sure I told this story here before. Maybe I have and if so I'll link to it. Watch this space.

*Checks*

Turns out I haven't. I've seen Lee Greenwood at least three times. The first time, I was just an ordinary fellow in the audience of a show at Ruth Eckerd Hall in Clearwater, and nothing particularly unusual happened.

The second was almost a whole decade later. His star had been eclipsed by others in country music and he was reduced to appearing at a department store grand opening occasion to sign autographs and give out pamphlets for his theater in Kodak, TN. I was on lunch break from my job, in a bookstore in the same plaza. I saw him sitting at a desk, and there wasn't anybody else in that corner of the store and he looked...hmm...like he had already signed too many autographs and didn't want to have to smile to strangers unless they were buying him a drink. And unfortunately, I was still a stranger. And while, if I had the time to buy him a drink, which I didn't, I'd still feel bad about intruding on him, because even though I know him as a celebrity, I haven't exactly been a fan of his as such. Maybe it isn't so much the dark side of fame as it is a failing of the human condition. I like to think we all have some creative skills, some desire to create, some admiration for artists who have achieved enough to make a living at what they love to do. But even they have days in which what is demanded of them has nothing to do with what they love. And that stinks sometimes.

The third time was at a TV studio. Both he and my mother were guests on a local affairs program, and as I saw him come into the "green room" I said "Hi Lee! Nice to see you AGAIN!" It really was good to seem him again--because he looked much happier than he did the second time. Sure, it wasn't the same as performing in front of a football stadium full of fans, but at the same time, it wasn't that lousy lunch break from hell either. He took a double take...after all, I'm still just a stranger to him. And perhaps I'll always be that to him. Part of my ambition is to maybe have one or two of his problems someday.
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* BLUE or
* BROWN/BEIGE?

Want a show of hands one way or another, please? Thanks in advance.

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