Pilot's Log

Sagittarius Horoscope for week of May 30, 2013

"I'd rather not sing than sing quiet," said the vivacious chanteuse Janis Joplin. Her attitude reminds me a little of Salvador Dali's. He said, "It is never difficult to paint. It is either easy or impossible." I suspect you Sagittarians may soon be in either-or states like those. You will want to give everything you've got, or else nothing at all. You will either be in the zone, flowing along in a smooth and natural groove, or else totally stuck. Luckily, I suspect that giving it all and being in the zone will predominate.

Really, if your amps don't have sufficient juice there isn't any point in cranking them to Eleven.

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Dr. Scribbles is working on a device to move the planets of the Solar system to new orbits. To prove it, he'll set Mercury so its new orbit perpetually eclipses the Institute and puts all those fools "where the sun don't shine".

Sagittarius Horoscope for week of June 30, 2011

In 1498, Leonardo da Vinci completed one of his masterworks, the mural known as "The Last Supper." Nineteen years later, the paint had begun to flake off, and by 1556 Leonardo's biographer considered the whole thing to be "ruined." Over the centuries, further deterioration occurred, even as many experts tried to restore and repair it. The most recent reclamation project, finished in 1999, lasted more than two decades. I hope that in the coming months, Sagittarius, you will show a similar dedication to the high art of regeneration. Please work long and hard on bringing vitality back into what has fallen into decay or stagnancy.

I could use a Time Lord's dose of regeneration. Have a new actor play my role, a redesigned set for the shots, new costumes and props...

But I'm willing to settle for getting a career--just about ANY career!--on the path to sustainability again.

A Barrel of Oil is 31.5 Gallons (4032 ounces, or 56 six-packs). Don't ask me who decided this matter.

$97.88/Barrel equals $3.11/Gallon of Crude. Refine it, take stuff out of it, put more stuff in it, add sales taxes and maybe a nickle or two of profits to the individual gas station, and there you have it.

Told you it was useless.

FP

Today, the National Public Radio program "All Things Considered" had a very interesting and enlightening segment about a discovery that autism seems to be rooted in abnormalities in the portion of the brain that on one side governs memory and the other governs reaction to specific emotions...namely fear and anticipation.

The more I heard, the more I was convinced that I do in fact have autism. Whether this is Asperger's Syndrome or something else, I don't know as yet. But still...

1) I was born premature.
2) I come from an area of the country that at the time of my birth and childhood was notorious for the level of pollution in the environment, and lived in older houses where I could have been exposed to substances that altered my development. For a while I thought that some of my problems could be linked to mercury poisoning...and I still suspect there is a little truth to it now.
3) In childhood I had frequent difficulty handling my own emotions. kevissimo can readily attest to that.
4) I have problems with affixing names to faces/people. It's gotten me into trouble at work and at social functions.
5) I've suffered various phobias. These were more pronounced in childhood, of course.
6) I was diagnosed with hyperactivity disorder by early grade school age and prescribed amphetamines for a while. And my dependency on caffeine has been detailed elsewhere in my blog.
7) I won't get into my emotional and social difficulties in my adolescence/teenage years, but they were there.

So I'm at the ultimate dilemma...get a formal diagnosis and attempt to claim disability status, or continue to struggle with myself in silence and find a round hole that can fit my square peg?

Both ways are hard. Both ways carry a shame that I'll have to live with for the rest of my life. I hate the choice. But pretty soon, I have to make it.

FP