How Is 45 Supposed To Feel?
Jul. 18th, 2011 07:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
frustratedpilotI've had off and on chest pain today. Not the first time, and not the worst time. But it's lousy and I don't wish it on anybody. I took a pain pill, but that was hours ago and I probably get another dose after I finish this.
When I was younger, I never thought I'd live this long. Granted, I thought I was living in a much more dangerous world than reality seems to present, but just the same I never thought much about it nor did I plan for anything. And how could I?--nobody was going to help me see my path clearly nor give me enough of the right clues. That my life has been the ghastly failure that it appears should surprise no one.
I'm not sure what I feel. What's going on under the surface?
When I was younger, I never thought I'd live this long. Granted, I thought I was living in a much more dangerous world than reality seems to present, but just the same I never thought much about it nor did I plan for anything. And how could I?--nobody was going to help me see my path clearly nor give me enough of the right clues. That my life has been the ghastly failure that it appears should surprise no one.
I'm not sure what I feel. What's going on under the surface?
